I was pretty angry at my horse yesterday. I had no tears, I just drove from the barn mad. I do everything for this horse. Board her in a beautiful facility, give her the best supplements, constantly educate myself on how to make myself a better horse person and her a better horse. I have given her a pretty good life. But she doesn't understand all that, she just knows she is scared all the time. I just want a "normal" day with her. One day where I am not worried about her fracture, one without rearing, without quivering, a day where her feet stand still. Yesterday was not one of those days. She was a complete mess. Just touching her, you could see adrenaline build. We left the arena on a positive note, and once she was in her stall, she was content, but I was secretly writing my free horse ad.
Issuing a trainer's challenge! What do you truly know about training horses? This six year old mare is beautiful, but new baby, moving, illness, too many horses, death in the family (why not use all the typical sale reasons?) forces sale. This horse will put you to the test. She can walk forward and backward on two hind feet. She is aware of everything. If left in the wild, this is the horse that survives...stomping things that frighten her, running as fast as the wind. She operates on constant adrenaline. More "go" than "whoa." I like to refer to her as "over eager." Of course the tag line to any horse ad, with time and patience, this horse can go in any direction (especially if something scares her:-).
It feels good to vent. There are days I wish I had just turned the car around and never made the journey to Yreka, California to look at her. I know horses have no time line, but there has to be a point when things get "fun" again or I can't keep doing this to myself.
Cruel World Blues
17 hours ago